BookRix

What's the point right now? Everybody just ends up leaving me even tho they say they won't. I can't even fully trust anyone now because how many times people have left. I forget what being happy feels like. I've cried every night over the past few weeks. I don't know what to do. Only way I know of stopping what I'm going through is to just make everything stop in general. No brain function means no nothing. Only reason why I'm still here is because I'd rather go though all this pain instead of making more people go through pain because of me.

If you're reading this I just want you to know that you are an amazing person! And I love you ❤️and it may feel like it will not get better but it will I promise ,it my not feel that way right now but it will....for thoses who want to give up don't just don't! Giving up isn't the way.and if you give up you won't know what you are gonna miss you'll miss probably one of the best things that has ever happened.there is Someone out there for you who loves you and cares about you. And just think giving up on life mean that who ever wants you to give up or makes you feel bad your giving them what they want and let's not give them what they want! And if you give up there will be alot of people who will miss you! So please please please don't give up! You are smart beautiful/handsome and don't let anyone bring you down beacuse your amazing and they're just jealous.i love you have an amazing day /night ❤️

Am I the only one that feels a type of happiness when with other people, but as soon as I am alone, I realise every time that it was fake happiness that I alluded myself into thinking was real? Faking to smile each day, faking to laugh and be fine is so exhausting to the point where I go home and just- I cannot even speak. So I get in trouble off my parents and cry myself to sleep most days. This cycle just... repeats. I do miss the subtle aches when the weather changed, I miss.... feeling.

I want my old self back... I’m so mean now... I don’t know what to do anymore... I hate myself... I just want the old me back. I was so cheerful and happy! But now I’m just a horrible negative person...

pretending to smile, to be okay, is a lot harder than it seems

I wish I didn't have the heart to love you.
-Lil Peep

Say someone can’t be sad because someone else may have it worse is just like saying someone can’t be happy because someone else might have it better.

"We're all fighting battles
no one knows about"
~XXXTentacion